Joy in the Battlefield

Joy in the Battlefield

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. – James 1:2-3

Be grateful in every challenge that you are facing for God is preparing you for His greater purpose. Do not be discourage and be in faith, for in every trial, you always gain more than what you think you have lost along the battle.

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Wala na akong ibang hihilingin
Salamat sa Diyos kayo ay kapiling
Puno ng saya ang gabi ngayon
Ang lahat ng ito’y pangarap ko
Na paulit-ulit na dinadalangin ko
Sumabay kayo sa mga awit ko
Tungkol sa gabay at panaginip mo
Dahil sa inyo tuloy ang ikot ng mundo
– Pasasalamat by Callalily

I’ve been through a lot this past few months, been thinking a lot of things and doing a lot of stuffs.  I keep on asking God for guidance and strength, distractions from stress and even wisdom to make things happen. Been distracted with “what has been” and “what could have been” without realizing this is “what should it be”.

I never thought that this could be the way it should be, been asking God “why” but was never really accepting His response.  I know He’s telling me something but I can’t figure it out what it is.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. – Jeremiah 29:11

Then just weekend while talking to my coach, she asked me a couple of questions which I answered without thinking. I just realized I knew it all along; I just don’t want to accept it.

But then again, I’m thankful and grateful though the root cause of all of this mischief in my life lately is because I kinda lost one person in my life, but God replaced it and blessed me with a bunch of weirdos.hahaha I already volunteered, or hang out with them, but somehow didn’t connect with them because I don’t want to venture out of my comfort zone, but God moved in my behalf. 🙂

my best and worst friend to date!lol

my best and worst friends to date!lol

I asked God for a playmate and a best friend, He gave me Shyrmay
I asked God for a victory group member, He gave me Icar
I asked God for a sister, He gave me Jam
I asked God for a volunteer photographer, He gave me Paul
I asked God for sense of humor, He gave me Herb
I asked God for comforter, He gave me Karlo
I asked God for a baby brother, He gave me Ronnel

Now I’m really doubting.. is this really from God??hahaha

A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for a time of adversity. – Proverbs 17:17

None the less, thank you cause I don’t know if I were able to make it without all of you.. 🙂

Sa mga nagdaan sa buhay ko
May lungkot at saya ang dinanas niyo
Ngayon alam ko na ang nasa puso ko
Sa gitna ng lahat ng pagsubok
Naniwala kayo na kaya ko
At ngayon iingatan ko na ang nasa palad ko
Wala na akong ibang hihilingin
Salamat sa Diyos kayo ay kapiling
Narito na ang bukas… ang saya ng bukas

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Not My Ordinary Trip

You wanna know how great our God is? Let me walk you through with the recent trip I had at CDO, Bukidnon and Camiguin.

I really never blogged any of my travel, I often post pics but this one is very much different from the other tour that I had.

Last February 15, 2013, me together with my friends, Misty, Tata, Daisy and Ate Pam, went to Mindanao for our first travel this year. Before that, we were nine then who booked for this trip but as days passed by, we were only five who pushed through.

On our first day, we went to Bukidnon, went to the Del Monte Plantation, Ziplined at Dahilayan and took amazing photos of the beautiful facade back draft by green pastures and Kitanglad Mountain Range. Then went back to CDO and enjoyed the rapids.

We went to Camiguin for the 2nd day of our adventure. Explored the whole island, enjoyed the white sand, ate Kiping and tasted some sea urchins.

Sounds like a normal trip? Yes it is, we went home safe and happy. But wait there’s more J

During our stay at Camiguin, CDO was shaken by intensity 1 and warned by low pressure. The waves were already rocking the ferries tied up at Benoni port.

When we traveled back to CDO, the waves were not that good to us. Our guide Kuya Teddy pushed that we took the second to the last trip going back to Balingoan Port since the waves were really swaying those huge ferries docked near the surface.

On our way to CDO, our van were apprehended by men in uniform for checkpoint, I was sleeping then and know nothing with what is happening around me. When I told my mom about it she told me, that might not be members of the military nor policemen who really searched the van, she suspect that it might be members of NPA. Of course us being unarmed, they didn’t harm us.

Sunday we flew back to Manila, flight was delayed due to air traffic in and out NAIA.  Then came Monday, and several flights to and from CDO were canceled due to typhoon Crising

Wednesday news reported that Dole and Del Monte Plantation Farm in Bukidnon were attacked by NPA on Tuesday night.  The huge pineapple that serves as Camp Philips’ landmark was destroyed during the assault.

Coincident? No it isn’t. God was protecting us from all the possible danger that surrounded us that time. Armored by prayer and faith, God was there all along with us. From our flights that He piloted to the vessels that He captained.  During our stay in Mindanao, everything could happen but with God every danger was delayed until we left the land.

“God will command his angels to protect you wherever you go.” – Psalm 91:11 (CEV)

If it wasn’t for God’s mercy, I don’t know what could have happened during our stay. I praise God for the beauty of Mindanao. And forever, my heart will be grateful for God’s amazing protection.

“my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge ,my shield and the horn of my salvation. He is my stronghold, my refuge and my savior—from violent men you save me.I call to the Lord, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies.” – 2 Samuel 22:3-4

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Note to Self

A year ago I drafted a mail for myself and sent it via I already forgot what I wrote until today I received my own mail from the past. It made me laugh and cry at the same time. at some point yes, I have fulfilled what I wanted to happen last year, but there are also things that I was not able to accomplish (might not be in sync with God’s plan). I hope I didn’t disappoint my old self that much. LOL

Below is the screen grab of what I have in store for myself a year ago.

noto1 noto2 noto3

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Shinigami (死神?, “death god” or “death spirit”) is an entity in Japanese folklore that is responsible for seeing that a person dies at their appointed time and then guiding their spirit to be judged in the afterlife. — As defined by Wikipedia

Many people do ask me why saint shinigami.. of all the pen names available, why shinigami? and there’s this one question that retains in my mind that I never answered, why shinigami, you love God right? Now let me answer that..

When I was a lot younger I defined my life as deprived from joy, deprived from freedom.. one who can’t speak her mind, one who can’t expressed joy.. that was the time I choose to be called saint shinigami.. I felt extreme sadness and frustration on things I can’t do for I feel deprived for everything..  Growing up behind that pen name wasn’t easy, it felt so sad and felt so cold.. It seems that I hated the world before it hated me..

To summarize it, I associated myself to death, I considered myself dead.. That is how negative shinigami means to me..

That is what I think how dreadful my life is, that is how blinded I am by the lies of the enemy. Until that day God found me running in circles of misery. I learned how blessed I am, how so much joy I can attain from God’s love.  Life ain’t that bad after all especially when I let God rule over my life.

So what will happen now to saint shinigami?

As much as I wanted to continue to call myself saint shinigami or just shinigami because of its “astig-ness” sound, it won’t fit me anymore. I know how Jesus died for my salvation, for me to live and accept the gift of eternal life.  I don’t want to live my life as if I’m dead, I’m no zombie  but a princess in my God’s eyes. I know how He has set me apart to live a bountiful, happy and blessed life.

But I said to you, “You will possess their land; I will give it to you as an inheritance, a land flowing with milk and honey.” I am the Lord your God, who has set you apart from the nations. – Leviticus 20:24 (NIV)

So long saint shinigami, you no longer live in me, I will no longer hide at your back. I choose to live in faith, with my Father who gave me eternal life.

Hmmm… now what pseudonym will I call myself??hehehe

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